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Wake at Night and Scream.

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God, all i do remember .. Sitting in my cold, dark, lonely ass room.
It sickens me to my stomach to even have a thought about back then.
Going to school, day in and day out, paying attention to nothing,
But the music that blasted in my ear.
Music to push my thoughts away.
Going on for days without sleep.
Not eating a single piece of food.
Grossly just making it passed the 100lb mark.
People talked to me, i pushed them away.
My phone rang, didn't bother to answer.
On weekends, i wouldn't even come out of my room.
Sneaking out every night.
Walking in alleys.
Feeling, Peaceful .. ?
Living off gum, Redbull, and Weed.
Getting high just to be.. Whats that feeling called? .. oh.. happiness.
Fucking with peoples feelings for my own entertainment.
Suicide on my mind, 24/7.
The sound of crying, swarms me.
The feeling of.. abandonment, Hurts me.
When i did sleep. i would wake at night and scream.
Scream, cause of the feeling of.. killing.. the people i actually loved.
The nightmares of .. watching them.. die.. in my arms.
Haunts me.
To this,
Very.
Day.
Just .. my past.. decide to write in down.. and i dont really do.. dairy shit.
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